my mom is making me pay rent to her to live at home. i know nobody else who’s parent is asking them to pay rent literally two months after graduating high school. i don’t know why she’s springing this on me right now as i’m already working five nights a week to pay for a car loan so i can buy a vehicle and car insurance while also paying for therapy and prescriptions for my mental wellbeing so maybe soon i can feel safe enough to go to school soon which i will also be paying for…this is so frustrating. i just want to quit trying to do well and give in to this stupid insolent craving to self destruct for revenge. manipulative bratty little crazy shit.
I used to pray like God was listening.
I used to make my parents proud.
I was the glue that kept my friends together,
Now they don’t talk and we don’t go out.
my family thinks i’m lazy and bitchy but in reality i am just so depressed rn that their talking to me sounds like buzzing nonsense and i would rather melt into the couch than force myself to pretend to listen to it